Thanks to all of those who have emailed, called, written,... sent smoke signals.... but really.. all is well.
I have obviously taken a much needed BREAK from the computer life... didn't even turn on the computer for over a month... THAT was glorious! And I have taken a much needed BREAK from the "scrappy life" ! I felt the need to re-evaluate and ask ... "WHY?" am I doing so much for so many other people ...for little or NO return... and thru it all my family is missing me. I look around me... surrounded by countless dollars worth of supplies and get SO depressed by it all. Almost "smothered" by it... It is NOT healthy! So I am parring DOWN... way way DOWN!
Anyone want to come to a scrap-crap yardsale?
I NEED to be creating something... It eats at me from the inside if I don't. I have always been like that but since..oh, maybe the past year or so... it was more like a cancer and it was NOT good for me! ... not good for my family! I let myself lose sight of what is really the most important.
I think that romance started to die for me just after my term with MM ended. I felt not only a bit used but, used up! Creative on Demand... sometimes with only 3 days notice and I would eat the overnight shipping cost! HOW does THAT make any sense? I am not sure what I was expecting I was going to get out of it all but I am just disenchanted with the whole behind the scene aspect. The back stabbing... "dog eat dog" attitude ruined it for me! Seriously, it is only paper and glue for Pete's sake! I really didn't want every class I took to be a mini therapy session that drained me even more! I didn't want "teachers" YELLING at the class to be quiet because we might miss something... good golly... it's not the fine art of neurosurgery... it is a 12 x 12 page layout that anyone can copy from a magazine ...or even come up with on their own!... we gather to talk and share NOT to be shushed!...UGH! don't get me going! I got really tired early on for producing for others or teaching for product.... Can't contain all that I have already!
Focus shift .... beach house is great! Island life is ... WONDERFUL ! Totally peace-filled ! I love that our computer doesn't work there! I am in NO rush to get that changed either! Everytime we are there and it comes time to leave we dread leaving. Furniture is SLOWLY making its way across the Bay, down the dock and up the stairs ! I wanted to fill a UHAUL and bring it over by barge but the logistics of that was stressing me out so I decided to accept that it will happen... piece by piece ... one chair at a time ! We look like Sanford and Son moving service but the water version. (ok, I said that to my daughter's teacher and she did not know who Sanford and Son were... (She's young!) We are getting our money's worth out of the air mattresses ! (wink) Lots of yummy colors surround us there.... the girls' room is pink but we will be painting their dresser "orange burst" very soon.... the coffee table is going to be a sexy shade of "sweet rhapsody" (deep aqua marine)....for the dresser in the guest room which is a deep golden yellow I am 1/2 tempted to paint it either a cream or aqua but eventually COVER it with shells that we find on our daily walks.... we'll see!
Kids are great ! I am in charge of the school yearbook this year. Did NOT know that the PTA president signed us up for a digital format this year... ugh! I am now quite good at desktop editing. my Silver lining! I really needed to get with the 90s and learn it!
"DH" is well..... challenging at times but what "DH" isn't?
So,... with all that said... I am going to help my kids get their "friendship grams" ready for Valentine's Day.
Thanks again to you all. Not to worry about ME !
xoxoxo
Catherine